MY why

I grew up a super sensitive, empathic kid, overwhelmed by the energy of others around me. I lacked energetic boundaries and didn’t have the knowledge or tools to help myself not feel everything and everyone (living or not). It felt like torture constantly feeling so much, I felt invaded, but assumed that is how life would have to feel for me.
As I got older and became an adult, I also struggled hard with imposter syndrome & “not enough” syndrome. I was stuck in life, lacking self confidence to even know what I wanted to do or be. My “purpose” was clouded by my inner critic telling me to play small, that others were out there doing it better than I ever could, so why try? Perhaps you relate.
I had a severe case of fear of failure, worried I would be ridiculed for putting myself out there in any way. 

Secretly, I longed for someone to discover me and give me permission to go after my dreams and show up in the world in a bigger way (not knowing that permission had to come from myself). The irony- I loved helping others feel confident, I was a natural cheerleader and problem solver- I just couldn’t do it for myself!

The years went by, and I tried to ignore the dormant dreams, getting busy with life. Until one year when my life changed and I would never be the same again…

My husband and I were trying to get pregnant and I had a series of miscarriages that left me feeling helpless. I finally got pregnant again and was into my second trimester at a party, when I discovered I was starting to have another miscarriage. This dream was suddenly taken away from me, and left me devastated. 

As I was grieving this loss of this life, I could also feel myself changing- and I didn’t like it- I could see I was at a crossroads: beginning to slip into a depression and beginning to feel resentful. I wanted to feel happy for all of my pregnant friends and family members, but I just couldn’t. I didn’t like the way I felt. And I could feel how time was passing me by. 

I had 2 choices: to sink deeper into this feeling of hopelessness & resentment, or I could choose to turn around and revisit some of those secret dreams I had laid dormant.

I chose right then and there to give birth to a new life- my life!
I wrote down all of my dreams & goals & chose one goal start with. I broke that goal into small, do-able steps and before you know it I had done it! I set to work accomplishing one dream at a time, one small step at a time. 

Within a year, I learned to surf, I created a greeting card line with my art and photography that sold in stores all across CA and around the US and was published. My blog & photography became discovered by mom’s who hired me to do their family photos and soon I had a bustling photography business that won multiple awards & I still run it today after multiple moves around the country! Now I get paid to travel with my camera all over the US and abroad, a dream I never knew was possible! 

I finally took my energetic boundaries seriously and learned all of the skills and tools to not absorb the energy around me. Now I help others do the same!

And that girl who always loved helping others with their confidence, going after their goals and dreams? 

I am a certified life coach, fully living in my purpose helping others tap into their own intuitive guidance, release imposter syndrome, and connect with their highest self, so they can show up as her and go after their dreams! 

From that tragic loss I experienced, I was given the opportunity to give birth to a new life. Now it is my passion to help others make the most of of their lives and let go of the shackles of imposter syndrome and “not enough-ness”. Life is too darn short to hide out, to live in fear of being judged, and not to go after your dreams!